Do you every have those days where everything is really going ok, but theres just something bothering you in the back of your mind? and Its like one of those pesky flies?
Yeah, I know. Worst analogy ever. Get over it. My blog.
Either way, I'm having such a hard time just living life and being the person I want most to be. I feel like I'm half the person I was since Devon left. I used to be so unafraid. We'd walk around back lanes with our case of beer, and didn't have a fear in the world. Now, I'm afraid to walk from the bus stop to work.
I still try to act like everything is ok. and that it doesnt bother me everyday, all day. But it does. How does somebody just up and dissappear like nothing else, and not look back? I miss my best friend. But I'm so choked.
Is it so hard to just be ok? Why does it still hurt like this was yesterday? My breath still gets caught in my chest when I think about him and how it all happened. It's been almost two years, and I still cant figure out where to go from here.
Why doesn't he just come home?
Sorry... maybe my next post will be happier.
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